My 2004
January 7, 2005
A week has passed since 2005. In a way I had the opportunity to reflect back on the last year. 2004 has been one of my most memorable years. I would say I’ve changed both spiritually and emotionally.
I’ve learned that there will be people who do not understand me and I cannot make them understand who I am. I’ve learned that not everyone will accept who I am as a whole. Not everyone will accept my beliefs and values or even my advice. Of course different people have different views on things, I accept that. Not saying I’m such a good person though. I do hurt people unintentionally. It’s just that sometimes I get so passionate and engrossed about my values and beliefs.
I am not perfect. I will resent people who hurt me, use me, especially if they do it often. I don’t always make the right choices, thankfully, few of my choices hurt anyone. I’ve learned the hard way that I cannot always count on others to respect my feelings, even if I respect theirs. Being a good person doesn’t guarantee that others will be good people too.
I learned that when people ask for my advice, there’s a possibility that they will do the opposite and sometimes they try to contradict me. I cannot expect people to listen to what I say even though they hear me. Now I’ve learned to keep some thoughts to myself unless neccessary and at the same time I try to honest to a degree that it doesn’t hurt anyone. I do know that I am straightforward. I’m trying to keep that in control. hehe I feel that it’s for the better of all mankind. *smirk*
I’ve had my share of laughter and tears this past year and I do not regret any of my actions because I believe my actions show who I am. I have made my mistakes but do not regret them because had I not make any mistakes there would not be any improvement. I may seem stubborn to some people but there is a difference between being stubborn and head-strong. =)
“To dream of the person you want to be is a waste of the person you areâ€
— Anonymous
Okay I think that’s enough rambling for one day heh.