Archive for April, 2005

BLEH

April 29, 2005

I am annoyed and a little disappointed at the moment. I mean how hard to you track someone in an office? For those who don’t know you’re probably thinking “Okay, what is this cabo talking about???”

Well, today I had a somewhat of an appointment with someone at a hotel. A highly prestigious international hotel but I’m not going to say the name on here. I got to the hotel lobby at between 3.10pm – 3.15pm (as asked), went to the receptionist and asked to see so and so person from so and so department. He then proceeded to call this person…and this is where the ‘fun’ begins.

First problem, it took the receptionist about 5 minutes or so tracking down the person before asking us to have a seat (I was with a friend). “No one is answering the phone. I’ll keep trying for you” is what the guy said. Then he asked if I was there for an interview. I was dressed in a black shirt and jeans. “Does it freaking look like I’m here for an interview?!?!?” was my first thought. But being a somewhat civilized person I am (heh) I smiled and politely said “No”. Anyway, receptionist guy (whose name shall be anonymous) asked me to have a seat. Yeah, I sure did sit…for 30 freaking minutes!!!

Nonetheless, I’ll give the other lady who was working at the lobby credit. She probably saw us sitting there for quite some time and came by to ask if we were waiting for anyone. So again I told her I wanted to see so and so from so and so department. But she couldn’t get hold of that person either, telling me the same thing the guy said. In essence, to wait, which we did. All in all I waited at the lobby for 45 minutes or so before finally meeting the person I intended to.

How you ask? Well I soon got hold of my aunt who got hold of that person I was suppose to meet. And meet we did. I explained to her the situation. She was baffled and asked “They could’ve contacted me on my mobile phone”. So the question remains “Why didn’t they?” Mobile number not listed in their systems? Could be a reason…but whose fault is that? Management? But then, if it wasn’t listed then why did the lady surprised they didn’t contact her on her cell phone? Is it just me or is is just plain incompetence? I noticed that the hotel had a lot of foreigners in suits walking around. My guess is they’re in the upper management departments. Now does that tell you something? Well, it certainly tells me that Malaysians are not up to the standard in the service sector and we still need foreigners to help run operations smoothly and maintain a certain set of international standards. Don’t get me wrong though, I’m a supporter of “Malaysia BOLEH!” but sometimes people here do things that annoy me so much.

BLEH We will never know now will we? For me it’s a little sad to see such a ‘prestigious’ hotel name go down the drain like that, at least for a few more days until I’m done fuming over it. Heh. I’ll probably forget about in a couple days. This post may seem harsh for some but bear in mind this is my blog, my opinions, my thoughts, my expressions. You have been warned on the top of the blog. As always I welcome comments and whatnot. TV time for me…toodles~~~

MIA

April 27, 2005

Yes I know I’ve been missing in action for almost a week or so. Heh It seems my attempt to blog more often has failed in some sense. Hehehe Oh well…I guess I do have some sort of a life (now). *chuckles*

Been going out a lot lately, especially during the evenings for drinks and chit chatting with my friends. It has been really fun hanging out and not have to worry about school but on the downside we worry about getting jobs and all that stuff.

I sent in a job application the other day but I am not sure on the possibilities of getting an interview. Anyway, Heh I went for an interview yesterday morning. It’s my first interview after sitting around being a couch potato for a month or so LOL There I stood with my 3-4 inch heels for over an hour and honestly I thought my legs were going break (There were no chairs to sit on, only boxes). Hehehe I don’t know what my chances are though since the interviewer mentioned that a lot of people had applied for the post. I’ll have to wait for a phone call if I get the second interview. Overall, the interview went okay. I mean it IS my first job interview. We shall see.

As for this morning, interviews weren’t looking so good, at least for me. It seems there are a lot of openings in the sales department, something I’m not really good at unfortunately.

On another note, I’ve been making earrings with a friend and selling (hoping) them to people i.e friends, family, friends of friends, friends of family etc. So far it’s going okay. Got to sell to some people. I’m hoping that we can sell them online at some point after I get some facts right first. I’ll see if I can take pictures of them and post them on here and if anyone is interested, let me know. Come on, help a sistah out here. I’m broke. Heh

I’m extremely tired today for some reason even though I had about 8 hours of sleep (I think). Either that or I was dreaming of sleeping that long. Heh I really can’t tell at the moment. I even thought today was Tuesday. *twitch*

With that said I should be getting some sleep. Adios~~

More stuff…

April 16, 2005

In life, I’ve notice people do things that are not for their best interest. For example, my dad smokes. I give him a hard time for it but he doesn’t care what I say or think. He does it anyway. We all know it’s bad for health, yet a lot of people out there do it. Same thing with people who gossip, backstab, lie, and cheat. They know it’s bad, yet they do it anyway. The reason? Well it serves their interest. Most people lie, cheat or steal to get something they want…something they REALLY want. Okay, here’s my question…

To achieve something you REALLY want is it worth your dignity and self-worth? I mean, if one were to lie, cheat and steal just to get something and in turn you corrupt yourself spiritually and emotionally, is it worth it? Don’t know about you, but I certainly don’t think so. If you want something so bad that it leads you down a path that’s basically going to destroy yourself spiritually why do it? In the end, I feel that one’s spiritual and emotional well-being is of the most importance.

With that rationality, I tend to have this habit of pointing out what’s wrong (to me) in a situation. No doubt, not everyone shares my views on issues. I have no intention non-what-so-ever of forcing them upon anyone. You might say “Well you’re not in that situation, how would you know how it feels?” To that question, I say: Make me understand for I WANT to understand. Then one might say, “It’s too complicated to explain in words.” To that statement, I say: Words are powerful tools. Try to make me understand. Nothing is impossible until you try.

I believe I am a listener. I’ve been told that I am a good listener. No matter how bad or good I am of a listener I have to say that I enjoy listening (most of the time). Like I said in a previous post, I enjoy expressing my views and opinions especially when I’m asked to. I love sharing my thoughts. What I don’t understand is that fact that some people can’t accept them (views/opinions/thoughts) as I hope that would. I don’t understand because they asked for them in the first place; yet have a hard time accepting them.

Now that I think about it, it’s not so much on just accepting them but more on accepting AND embracing them with an open mind. Views and opinions can be accepted but whether or not one embraces them in their hearts and soul is up to the individual. Using my thoughts and words against me by turning them into negative judgment that was/is never my meaning is well…improper and…maybe just a little self-destructing. Why you ask? Well, at the end of the day my impressions of you that you turn into something negative will only serve the purpose of making you sad, defensive and/or maybe angry. You’re simply just sabotaging yourself. Get what I mean?

Some might find this post offensive to them. But it’s not about anyone specific. It’s just that situations in the past week have led me to think more about this. As I said, whether or not you embrace it is up to you. These are my opinions, my thoughts, my views. Notice how I used the word “my” so many times. It’s mine, not yours. I am speaking on my behalf, not yours. I really do accept comments and suggestions with an open mind. Don’t act all defensive on me and accuse me of calling you names and whatnot before even clarifying with me what I mean by the things I say. So feel free to say something by clicking the “comment” option below this post. =D

Stuff…

April 11, 2005

I have this feeling to post something, yet I don’t really know where this is going. I just have this urge to write and express myself. I guess this post will be more on a personal side, in the sense that it’ll be more about myself.

Over the last couple of years, I’ve realized that I’ve changed in ways that might have been overlooked by most people but that’s okay. =D I find myself more observant than before. At times I catch myself just sitting and paying more attention to my surroundings. I feel as if I’ve begun to understand more why people act the way they do or say the things they say. And even when I don’t understand why things happen, I see them happen. I guess most of the things I see pass by most people without them realizing it. I’m not saying I’m this super talented observer though. I’m just saying that I seem to notice the little things more that I used to.

Another thing is the fact that I’m now more vocal on my views and opinions. I enjoy expressing my thoughts to people especially when they ask for it. Nonetheless, people misunderstand me sometimes. No one is perfect and I realize that there are still areas for improvement in the way I express myself. However, at the end of the day I don’t regret what I express because I know whenever I express my views and thoughts and feelings, I do it with the depths of my mind and soul. I have no hidden agenda, I don’t do or say anything to get compliments…my thoughts and views are the truest forms of myself that I can bring out to people.

I’m not out to save the world but I would love to help. I probably don’t make much difference in the world as whole but I do hope I can make a difference with people around me. In the end, it’s up to other people on whether to listen or accept my views and thoughts. I have no interest to forced my views on anyone.

Well, enough rambling for now. I should go to bed. Gotta wake up early for some errands. Catch you later.

2002 – 2003: A university junior

April 5, 2005

June 2002. I was accepted to University Malaysia Sarawak (UNIMAS). Registration day was kind of frustrating as it was long. Long queues, WARM HOT weather and just that feeling of “What’s next?” Then orientation week started, about 5 days of, well, pure annoyance really. We had to get up at like 5am/6 am everyday for morning ‘exercises’ and by night we weren’t allowed to go back to our rooms til about 1am or so for reasons I think was purely ridiculous. Of course at that time most of us were pissed at the way we were treated. But thinking back about it now, it was sorta funny. It’s not everyday you get ragged by seniors. I remember watching in disbelief as other people were rolling around in the field one early morning after it had rained most of the night *bleah* heh.

By the time orientation was over, class started and more registrations had to be done. For the most part I was wandering quite aimlessly as it was my first time and I wasn’t sure exactly what to do. Fortunately I grasp the concept of registering classes with the computers in campus. I must say it was quite unorganized and still is to this day. The long queues, unsuccessful attempts to get the classes you want because of “servers down” (which to this day still happens, you would think the university would’ve taken care of the problem by now) and whatnot.

Before classes started, I switched rooms. Initially, I was sharing a room with two other girls. I got my own room, my own space which I’m really glad I had because all my life I had my own room. Some may think that’s a ‘brat’ attitude but it doesn’t mean I can’t share. It’s just that when you’re so used to something it’s hard to change. In a way it was sorta exciting for me because I had the chance to live on my own so to speak, without parents’ supervision and whatnot. But by the time the weekend hit I’d packed my bags excitedly and head on home. Apparently, I still missed home. Hehe

As classes started everyone tried to adapt to the new routine…lecturers, classes, assignments, waking up in time for classes, meeting new people with different attitudes/values etc. For me, it started out a little frustrating as I found it hard to meet people around me i.e in classes that had the same wavelength as me. However, I managed to meet a few people who shared my interests and in some sense my wavelength. The first semester went by quite slow for me. I didn’t skip classes (at least I don’t remember skipping heh).

But it was fun. And since most of us lived in the same dormitory we would just decide at the last moment to do something and we did it because there were not problems of meeting up. Some nights a bunch of us would go for supper. Sometimes we would even go down to town just to get dinner (it’s about a thirty minute drive). So, Linda: thanks for driving us around since at that time you were the only person I knew who drove to campus.

But the second semester just flew and felt like only a month. I skipped a few classes. Apparently, I was starting to get the feel of Uni life. I can skip at the most 3 classes per course per semester. I took advantage of that. Hehe I remembered a couple of times I skipped classes just to follow a couple of friends to town for shopping. It’s not like I’ve never been to the mall but it’s the fact that when you get to do something you know you’re not suppose to do and it’s harmless, it somehow feels a lot more fun when you do it. I mean, I know I’m not suppose to skip class to go to the mall but I did it anyway and I was just so proud myself for doing that. Humans eh? *chuckles*

Overall, my first year was a learning experience. Although it had its frustrations and annoyance, it was fun to say the least. It was also the year my relationship with Rob bloomed into something very beautiful, which I feel helped me to go through Uni more smoothly.

It’s getting late. I think that’s enough for my first year in Uni.

Happy Anniversary Soulmate =D

April 1, 2005

And also, Happy April Fools Day! Hahaha I guess some of you are tilting your heads wondering what I’m talking about. Before any of you start reading….

Disclaimer: Information presented on this post is considered for most “too much” or “disgusting” due to the corny-ness/romantic-ness/ feeling-ness/ deepness/mushy-ness etc you should get the picture by now. =P Shin welcomes suggestions on how to improve this post and correct errors. Shin provides no warranty, expressed or implied, as to the accuracy, reliability or completeness of furnished data. *smirk*

April 1st 2003 was the day Rob and I decided to make a commitment and be loyal and devoted to each other. It was the day we decided that we wanted our relationship to last forever. Our relationship has developed into this very special bond that neither of us can explain in words. We’ve been through a lot together since then. We’ve had our ups and downs and we learn something new about each other every day. We’re so much alike yet we’re different in our own ways.

Many believe that such a relationship is overrated. Some feel that it has no prospects while others question the reality of this kinda relationship. Few believe that online relationships will work out and for those who have experienced and succeeded in making it work keep to themselves and cherish each other even more. I believe if one’s heart is in the right place, there will be no wrong. I’ve never felt this loved before, so wanted, so needed…so special. I’ve never loved anyone this much before and I trust I can’t love anyone else like this. He is my first love and my last.

He inspires me to express myself. I even started writing poetry for him. I guess in a way that shows how crazily in love I am with him heh. So many feelings inside of me but I can’t seem to find the words to express them all. It just feels good. It feels right. With that, I know it’s the real thing. I know it’ll last a lifetime. It’s been two years and it has just been by far the greatest experience. There is never a day that passes by that I don’t thank God for blessing my life with Rob.

We spent the day talking and playing games (yes I kicked his ass as always =>). Overall we just enjoyed each other’s company. We talked about our future and plans of him visiting me soon. We are aiming for my graduation which is in August but of course earlier would be great too. Either way, the wait will be worth it. I admit sometimes I get a little impatient about it but I understand there are things in our lives we must take care of. Some times there are hurdles to jump and barriers to take down. In the end, everything will be worth it. I waited my whole life for my soulmate, what’s a few more months? =D

Lastly, I dedicate this post to you Robbie. You’ve touched my heart and soul. You’ve brighten up my life. You’ve been a true blessing in my life and I appreciate you. I love you. I’m truly madly deeply in love with you. Happy Anniversary honey =)

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