2 more weeks…
October 15, 2005
I’ve finally finished marking final exams. Now, that was a challenge. And I missed going out with my friends because of that *cries* Heh I have two more weeks left at work. Then, it’s the end of the school year and also the end of my teaching ‘career’ =P I thought about going back to teach next year, that is if they still want me. I think they do as they asked me to fill a form indicating what classes I’ll teach next year. I dunno *shrug*
I know, I know. I know I’ve been pissed at work and I still feel that way sometimes. Too much internal politics going on in there and also the fact that some “teachers” are just..well let’s just say I wonder why they can be teachers. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying I’m a GREAT teacher. I’m not really. I know that for a fact. Then, there are the students who are most of the time annoying and rude and uncontrollable and the list goes on. BUT there’re some great kids in those classes. The only reason why I’m even thinking of going back is the fact that next year I get the good Upper 6 class which I totally adore and enjoy being in. And it’ll just be them until June next year until the new batch of Lower 6 comes in. THEN things start to get weird cos I’ll be teaching 2 Lower 6 classes. That’s a total of 24 periods a week which also equates to about 960 minutes (My current workload is 20 periods a week which is 800 minutes). Not too sure I can handle that much as 20 periods a week was quite a lot for me to juggle and I was already playing catch-up most of the time. Can you imagine 24 periods? *shudder* Yes I know. The job pays well and it’s better than doing nothing. I suppose that’s about the only good thing about this job.
Gah decisions decisions. Ya know, in a way I’ve already made up my mind. Sometimes I just love to contradict myself…
Anyways, 2 more weeks til I’m done with work means also 2 more weeks til I get to meet my honey!!! Honestly, I’m getting more nervous by the day. Thoughts of “OMG What is he gonna think when he sees me?” or “What if he sees me and thinks ‘Ewwwwwww!!'”? Where will I hide myself then? Yes, self-consciousness is getting to me. All that time I had to get in shape, I just wasted it on..well…procrastination. =P I can’t help being me though. I’m sure it’s not going to be like that but I still can’t help but have those mini nervous breakdowns while I’m alone in my car at a red traffic light.
I went shopping for Robbie’s stuff this morning. I must admit it felt a little weird shopping for his needs i.e toilet paper, soap, shampoo, laundry detergent etc. Not weird in a bad way but weird in a the sense that I’ve never done that for anyone before. Most of the time I shop for things that I need. There I was pushing that shopping cart around the store. I felt different but happy and contented as well. I felt as if I was not living only for myself but living and existing for someone else as well. I can’t describe that tingly feeling in my heart and thinking about it now makes me feel it again.
Not sure where I’m going with this so I better stop before I bore those reading this to a coma =P Think I’ll get ready for bed now.
hehe good to hear tat u finished ur marking…finally…last nite was great, but it could be greater with ya around!! there ll be next time, when all of us r free, not to mention when rob is here…we shall shake his a** off 😛
YES!! We must go shake some booty when he comes..imagine my honey dancing…well just imagine a monkey dancing. heh LUV YA honey =P