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A year ago today…

November 2, 2006

…Rob and I met face to face for the first time. I was excited but at the same time nervous. What would I say? What would I do? Thoughts were frolicking through my head as I waited anxiously at the airport. The moment I recognize that face, I lit up. He smiled. He pushed his trolley as he walked towards me. I stood there with a goofy grin on my face because I held up a yellow piece of paper with his name on it. It was an inside joke.

As he got closer to me, my hands came down and I hurriedly walked towards him. I don’t know what happened. All the nervousness was gone. We hugged. It was as if we’ve “met” before. I almost cried.

Ten months ago, Rob left Kuching. He took a part of me with him as I am sure part of him is with me here. Things have not been the same since. We ached for each other. We still do. It has been a rough year for the both of us, with dying pets and loved ones as well as hardships in life that seemed never ending. We “survived” those and our love for each other is as strong as ever. But days like today when the memory of us being together, holding hands and hugging is so intense, it’s hard to hold back the tears. It’s hard not to miss him so much.

Six weeks from now, I will be going to the States. We’re both very excited. He tasted a piece of Kuching, now it’s my turn to have a taste of the “American weirdness” as Rob says. I can’t wait to see him. I can’t wait to hold his hand. I can’t wait to be kissed by him. I can’t wait to hug him. I’m not sure if I can let go of him when I hug him when I arrive in Chicago in December.


I love you Robbie. One day we’ll be together for the rest of our lives and an eternity of afterlife.

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