A year ago today…

November 2, 2006

…Rob and I met face to face for the first time. I was excited but at the same time nervous. What would I say? What would I do? Thoughts were frolicking through my head as I waited anxiously at the airport. The moment I recognize that face, I lit up. He smiled. He pushed his trolley as he walked towards me. I stood there with a goofy grin on my face because I held up a yellow piece of paper with his name on it. It was an inside joke.

As he got closer to me, my hands came down and I hurriedly walked towards him. I don’t know what happened. All the nervousness was gone. We hugged. It was as if we’ve “met” before. I almost cried.

Ten months ago, Rob left Kuching. He took a part of me with him as I am sure part of him is with me here. Things have not been the same since. We ached for each other. We still do. It has been a rough year for the both of us, with dying pets and loved ones as well as hardships in life that seemed never ending. We “survived” those and our love for each other is as strong as ever. But days like today when the memory of us being together, holding hands and hugging is so intense, it’s hard to hold back the tears. It’s hard not to miss him so much.

Six weeks from now, I will be going to the States. We’re both very excited. He tasted a piece of Kuching, now it’s my turn to have a taste of the “American weirdness” as Rob says. I can’t wait to see him. I can’t wait to hold his hand. I can’t wait to be kissed by him. I can’t wait to hug him. I’m not sure if I can let go of him when I hug him when I arrive in Chicago in December.

*SIGH*

I love you Robbie. One day we’ll be together for the rest of our lives and an eternity of afterlife.

5 responses to “A year ago today…”

  1. Robert says:

    All I want is for us to be together (here, there, anywhere). That is my only dream, hope, and desire. I love you Shinnie.

  2. Anonymous says:

    thats so sweet 🙂
    i know how it feels to have your loved one in your arms and then have to let him go again, its like part of you gone with him

    well anyway, enjoy ur trip to the states!

  3. Shin says:

    I love you too Robbie.

    Sharon, tough isn’t it? I bet you had fun in your Europe trip. The pictures look great!

  4. Anonymous says:

    yea i had fun in my europe trip and its hard for me to say bubye to him there too 🙁

    oh well, im sure there’ll come a day when “we” can make it work, with lotsa and lotsa planning for future!

    like our dear friend erin who has moved to penang to be with the boy boy and complaining that i dont post comment in her blog and i did so in ur blog LOL

  5. Shin says:

    Oh it’ll DEFINITELY be hard to say bye when the time comes for me to leave. We both cried a few days before he had to leave Kuching.

    Yes, a lot of planning AND patience. Those who think long-distance relationship is a joke can kiss my ass. 😛

    lol I don’t comment too much on Erin’s blog but I do make use of her tagboard every once in a while. Hehehe

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