Happy Anniversary Robbie
April 23, 2007
Our 4th anniversary was on April 1st so I know this post is WAY overdue. Initially I wanted to write something but was pissed due to Streamyx being doiwn that week. Then I thought there’s no point doing a post anymore as I would be a week late. Now I’m feeling all lovey-dovey and mushy so I might as well make full use of my mood to write something. Here goes…
Robbie,
We have been through so much together even though we’re so far apart. We have talked about everything and anything under the sun, even beyond that. We talked about life and death, love and hate, courage and fear.
I love you. I love you so very much. Sometimes I feel like words cannot express how my heart feels for you. But I believe you saw how much I love you the morning I had to leave. I still get tears in my eyes (even right now) when I think of that morning at the airport. We were running late due to traffic. You dropped me off to check-in and went to find parking. As I stood there waiting for you nervously, I was so scared. I was so scared I wouldn’t see you one last time before I leave. What was I going to do if I didn’t get to hug you one more time? I was just so so scared. I kept looking at my watch. I prayed to God you’d make it. I even used my phone on roaming to call you but couldn’t get through.
Ten minutes past, you still weren’t there. I was at the edge of crying. And suddenly, I saw your face. I saw you running towards me. It was like a bright light shinning around you, like an angel guiding you to me. I couldn’t hold back my tears. I ran to you and hugged you so tight and sobbed. I didn’t want to leave. I still don’t want to leave but I had to.
Now that I’ve been home for over 3 months, I still miss you. I miss seeing you when I open my eyes in the morning. I miss sharing food and drinks with you. I miss closing my eyes knowing you’re next to me. I love having you next to me. It has never been the same since you came into my life, and I know it will never be the same again.
To love you is to realize that life without you would be no life at all…
I love you so much. You are always inside my heart, filling it with warmth and joy. You are everywhere in the world that surrounds me. You take my soul places it has never been before. You have given me more of you than I ever knew anyone would give. You have given me so much. Among the gifts you have given me, one of the most wonderful of all is the feeling of being loved by you.
Happy Anniversary Robbie.