Mental suicide
July 27, 2011
I just returned from a work trip on Sunday and I’m still feeling tired.
I think the fatigue is mainly due to emotional drain, today especially.
On top of what has been going on, work today really stressed me out.
I suddenly felt overwhelmed with my workload and the people I have to deal with on a daily basis. The emotions going through me were so intense that I felt sick to my stomach and my back was throbbing.
Even right now my back is still sore and stomach uncomfortable. Could it be something I ate? Maybe it was. I’ll never know.
All I know is I managed to figure out that I cared too much about my work and I take things personally.
Why should I care about something if it’s not worth worrying over?
Why should I try so hard to help someone if they don’t want to even help themselves?
Now I just need to figure out how NOT to care so much.
So while I figure this all out in my head, let’s just say I’m in a state of “mental suicide”.