This year
December 31, 2009
The year is coming to an end and I’ve spent the last few days reflecting on the things that have happened this year; good and bad.
This year I felt betrayal
This year I felt devastation
This year I felt desperation
This year I felt depression
This year I found new friendships
This year I drifted from some
This year I rekindled an old friendship
This year I graduated with a Master Degree
This year I started working full-time
This year I got my first front-page article
This year I am able to help financially at home
This year I found myself lost (oxymoron I know)
This year I found my way back
This year I learned again that ignorance is bliss
This year I felt what true determination was
This year I realised I’m not a quitter after all
This year I am more in love than I have ever been
This year…
I’ve changed…
Memoir
August 30, 2009
I have somewhat decided that I want to write a memoir. I realised that after I have finished my thesis, and even after I told Rob a few times that I had enough of writing during the last lag of my race against time to complete the thesis, I still constantly find myself thinking more and more about writing and how much I enjoy and miss it.
I’m sure you’re wondering now that if I so miss and enjoy writing why am I not updating my blog more often? Frankly, I have nothing interesting to blog about. My life now is mundane. The most exciting thing that happens to me each day is talking with Rob during the afternoons.
I am not a great writer. It takes a lot of talent to write something that everyone can understand and relate to. I have much to learn. The reason for writing this memoir is simple. Everyone has a story and I want to tell mine, since I have the time now anyway. I hope to write something that can touch lives, even if it’s just one.
A lot of this memoir will come from this blog since I have shared many experiences of my life on here. I’m not sure if I will ever finish it but then again how can anyone ever finish writing the story of their life? I have a few ideas on how to start and I just need to bounce those ideas around before I officially start.
I don’t expect to get it published or anything like that. It’s just something I want to do for myself. I can’t promise I will finish it but I keep having this intense desire to start writing one lately. I’m not too sure whether I will share it with the world (as in, in this blog) though. I suppose I need to be very confident with what I write to feel comfortable enough to publish it on the blog. We shall see.
Happy Merdeka everyone! 😀
I can but I can’t
December 18, 2007
I can be indifferent but I can’t ignore
I can forgive but I can’t forget
I can laugh but I can’t always smile
I can believe but I can’t be naive
I can be honest but I can’t be malicious
I can be a lot of things but as the days go by I find it harder and harder to believe in people 100% nowadays. I find it harder to have hope and expectations on them. Then again, it is partially my fault to expect certain values from some people, thinking that they would have the same values as me or at least have some kind of decency on their part.
When I wake up tomorrow it wil be a brand new day, hopefully a day of renewed hope, a day of renewed energy. As I face yet another day, I am glad that I already have people in my life whom I can believe in 100%.
For that, I am thankful.