Hazy day
August 16, 2006
I went out for a drive this morning. Without even realizing it, I was near the hospital where my grandmother is. So, I stopped by to see her. Last night, my mom told me that the doctor said there is no chance of her waking up and that she will be in a coma until she passes. She will continue to need oxygen supplied into her lungs and is likely to develop pneumonia because of this. No one knows how long she will be around. I told my mom about the dream and she said I think too much but I know deep down inside of her, she knows it will happen.
Seeing her today made me sadder than usual. My heart aches. She was more pale than usual. Her hands and up to the elbow are swollen even after being taken of the IV drip 2 weeks ago. I was told her
hands swell because of the IV. It was weird. I saw her and had this urge to take her picture, a picture of her laying there with tubes everywhere. So I did. I’m not gonna post it here obviously. Not going to freak you guys out. 😛
She’s old, even a car engine doesn’t last that long. Her engine’s probably really worn out by now. Hearing what the doctor said made me think. It’s a SURE thing now. She will pass some day. I know we all will but to have the doctor say that it’s like the ultimate ya know? All that I hope is for her not to suffer and for that she must pass. I don’t wish her dead. I just wish she wouldn’t suffer anymore. I think she would enjoy being with her husband and 3 daughters in heaven. One day we’ll all be there.
On to a not so somber post, the haze is here AGAIN! It gets worse and worse by the day. While out driving this morning visibility wasn’t as clear as usual. By 6pm when I left to go tutor it was so bad! I didn’t have a camera then so I couldn’t take the 6pm haze. :/
The pile on the floor
The pile on the bed
The pile of unsorted clean laundry and pillows thrown on the floor for more bed space.
Currently, I’m into the song by Corrine Bailey Rae, Put You Records On.
The tune is catchy and I like the upbeat-feel good lyrics:
Three little birds, sat on my window
And they told me I don’t need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.
Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong,but it’s alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don’t you hesitate.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down Sapphire and faded jeans,
I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You’re gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Blue as the sky, sombre and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the road side, (just relax, just relax)
Don’t you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that afro hairdo.
Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it’s alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don’t you think it’s strange?
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down Sapphire and faded jeans,
I hope you get your dreams, Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You’re gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Just more than I could take,
pity for pity’s sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise,
that you don’t even have to try any longer.
Do what you want to. Girl, put your records on,
tell me your favourite song You go ahead,
let your hair down Sapphire and faded jeans,
I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down Sapphire and faded jeans,
I hope you get your dreams, Just go ahead, let your hair down.
Oh, You’re gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
somehow this song took me back to the 80s 😛
cool song though 🙂
well if you’re an 80’s baby it makes sense that you like it. Hehe