Like a lovesick puppy

April 18, 2006

Obviously I’m still obsessed with that song. The more I listen to it the more I feel like this song was meant for me. (I know…I’m hallucinating. Lol but let’s just for a minute think this song is meant for me. Let me be a bit perasan for a while k? Heheh) And when I mean it’s meant for me, I mean it was written for me for Robbie. To prove my ‘theory’ correct, I’ll attempt to show how real this song is for me.

Let’s start with verse 1:

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You’re sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Now look at that smile. It just melts my heart. And those eyes…they’re so full of expressions; of happiness, contentment and pure love. How about the kiss you ask? Well, I’m no expert in describing kisses but let’s just say when I get a kiss from those lips, it’s like the world doesn’t matter. Yes, I do miss his breath on my neck when he whispers sweet nothings close to my ear.

Didn’t wanna want you
Didn’t wanna need you so bad
Didn’t wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn’t wanna need you
Didn’t wanna need anyone
Now look what you’ve done
Now I can’t go on without you
I’m naked, I cant fake it.
I’m not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

I never wanted to ‘need’ anyone. In fact, I find it impossible to need someone so much. Now, after 3 years of a wonderful relationship with Rob I just feel I can’t go on without him. I know, some of you might think that’s “too much” or ridiculous. Whatever it is, it’s how I feel and I can’t hide it. Ever since he left for home, I find myself feeling incomplete without Rob. I was so happy it was almost bordering disgusting. LOL Okay, back to mushiness; He gives me the strength to keep going. I won’t die per se without Rob in my life, but my heart would just stop loving I think. I feel as if my heart was meant only for him.

Verse 2:

Your touch, your skin
Can’t believe the way you let me in
Don’t rush tonight
I need you
Like the ocean needs the tide.

The way he holds my hand, or touches my cheek and telling me I’m beautiful, or even tickle me…it just feels right. I have my share of insecurities and I never thought anyone would let me in their lives so easily. With him, it was so easy. He was so open to share his thoughts and feelings with me. It’s amazing how he let me in his life like that. At the same time, he accepted me for who I am and gave me the room I needed to grow. We never rush each other into things. We would talk about absolutely anything and everything, be it possible or now. And that’s something I love about our relationship. We can share everything like how the ocean and tide shares the water.



I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look at what you’ve done
Now I can’t go on without you
I’m naked, I cant fake it.
I’m not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do

Growing up, I’ve always had the mentality that I can rely on no one. I had to do things for myself. I had to protect those I love, alone. I didn’t have anyone to depend on. We can only rely on our parents so much and not wanting to burden them, I took upon some problems on my own. But now, Rob is the person I go to to talk about my problems or feelings. I can rely on him in anything and I’m starting to get used to that feeling. See what you’ve done honey? =P I really never thought that it was possible for me to love anyone like this.

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This is probably what my heart looks like now. All gay (not homosexual. There’s another meaning to it if you didn’t know. Check and happy and bright and shiny and pretty, just like a rainbow. =D Life is good (but would be better if I were in Robbie’s arms). And because of Robbie pictures like this are possible; A very happy smile

Robbie baby, thank you for filling my life with so much love and happiness. I never thought I could love anyone the way I do nor have I ever thought anyone could love me the way you do.

One response to “Like a lovesick puppy”

  1. Robert says:

    Shinnie, my angel, I have ached in unimaginable ways being apart from you, and I miss you more than I can describe. I know our day will come, but it hardly seems soon enough. A bond like ours, is like a union of two souls. I yearn for the day we are together again, and I vow my heart to you eternally.

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