Archive for August, 2006

Selamat Hari Merdeka

August 30, 2006

Oh joy, oh happy happy Happy Independence Day *jumps around*throws confetti*balloons released*

Okay, so I’m being sarcastic. I can’t help it. Frankly, I don’t know what the hype is about with the celebrations and whatnot. I get that Independence Day is important. Without it, we won’t be sitting on our asses blogging and complaining about everything and anything. What I don’t get is that the celebration national of Merdeka Day in Kuching is troubling Kuchingnites like myself. Roads closed, traffic jams, etc. BLEH I’m probably in PMS mode at the moment so excuse the excessive bitching. 😛

However, I do enjoy watching the night lights in town during big celebrations like Merdeka Day and Hari Raya.

Told you traffic was a nightmare!


I went to the Times Bookstore Sale at Taman Kereta after dinner. I bought 4 books and I wasn’t even done looking through all the books there. I prefer Times’ Sale better now because there are so MANY English books for me to choose from and the prices are pretty good. I can’t read Chinese. 🙁

There were a few books that I really wanted but they were not on sale. :(( The 4 that I bought were all cheap; under RM20. If you are familiar with the prices of English books in Malaysia, you’d agree that it’s cheap.

Books I bought:

  1. Turbo Capitalism by Edward Luttwak
  2. The U.S and East Asia: Conflict and Co-operation by Tommy KB Koh
  3. Asia Rising by Jim Rohwer
  4. China Inc.: A Concise Overview of China’s Power Structure and Profiles of China’s Leaders Today by Laurence Brahm

I’m definitely going back tomorrow or the day after. It ends September 3rd. I must grab the chance to get cheap books!

Shoes shoes shoes

August 30, 2006

Anyone who knows me fairly well knows I am crazy about shoes. I was not like this as a teenager. I would always grumble in annoyance when my mom was at the mall (especially ones in KL or Sydney) spending hours looking at shoes, trying them on and in the end not buying any. It just drove me totally insane.

Sadly (being sarcastic) to say, now I have become a lot like my mom in the shoe department. I get kicks from getting a bargain on shoes when stores are offering a good price. I get double the excitement when the shoes are in the style I like AND comfortable!

Note: when I say shoes, I mean everything, from heels to flats to sneakers to loafers to flipflops.

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Dark brown wedges I bought from Payless Shoes Sydney and comfy!

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Flat ballet shoes from Target Australia. Extremely comfy for walking aimlessly in the mall. Hehehe

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This pair I bought from Vinci in KL early last year. It was on sale for RM17+ after a 70% discount. It’s one size bigger though cause my size ran out but I bought it anyway because I totally fell in love with it! Originally, it came with burgundy and pink ribbons. I bought silverish and blue ribbons to substitute them for my cousin’s wedding because my dress was baby blue and silverish lace. What a great bargain! Too bad I don’t get to use it often. 🙁

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This is probably my favorite pair of wedge espadrilles I’ll ever own. I saw the exact same pattern in May or June’s Cleo this year. It was green and by Sketchers for over RM150 if I remember correctly. I bought it in January from Country Road in Australia but I already saw it in early 2005 in the same store.

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Normal heels for casual wear. Bought them for less than RM20 each during Upwell’s closing down sale.

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My “Power” by Bata sneakers for casual use.

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Flat slippers I normally use when I go to dinner with my parents.

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My nice black heels that goes with EVERY outfit. I save it for special occasions.

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My Nike sneakers and the most expensive pair of shoes I ever bought at RM125 during sale. 50% off! Specially reserved for the gym.

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Flipflops by SuzanneGrae from Australia. Cost me AU$3. Isn’t that cheap?!

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Fila flipflops…that I snatched off someone, remember???

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Old navy wedge flipflops. The punctured holes you see are courtesy of my dog Leo. That little bastard!

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This pair of sneakers are cool looking. I like wearing them during trips! It’s made of synthetic rubber and is see through so the shoes changes shades according to my colored socks!

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To show you how crazy my mom and I are about shoes, these are just SOME of the boxes we saved up from our shoe-buying adventures. Hehehe

While I was looking for some of my shoes, I realized that I can’t find them. I remembered the last time I wore them, I left them outside on the shoe rack. I think they got stolen. %$#@!! Damn those people!

Guys reading this will be thinking “GEEZ GIRLS AND SHOES! IT NEVER ENDS.” My respond to that, wait til we start getting crazy over jewelry, PARTICULARLY diamonds. 😛 So boys, bear with us, for now.

August 28, 2006

I talked to my professor this morning and it turns out all the other professors are busy until month’s end. In other words, my presentation has been postpone until next month. *attempts to jump in joy* To be honest, I’m not that relieved or happy about it. I mean, sure it’s good to get some more time to prepare before the actual day but I am getting tired of things getting postponed this month.

With things with my grandmother, I won’t make it to my cousin’s wedding in New York or get to see Rob. It feels so long since I last hugged him. Eight months feel so long. I suppose I’m in some sort of a mood today. I didn’t sleep so good since the last 2 days. The main reason is the news I heard regarding my grandmother’s condition. A few days ago, the doctor told my mom that there is no point trying anymore and that it is better to just take off the monitors and oxygen and let her go. Asshole. I understand the reason behind it but he has no right to make such a decision. It is up to the family NOT him. Either way, my mom and her sister agreed so there is not much need for consent I suppose.

That aside, they took everything off 2 days ago and she just seems to be sleeping. What bothered me most is that they ALSO took off the monitor which tells you the heartbeat, blood pressure etc. I don’t know what it’s call exactly. I don’t get why they would take that away. At least, with that thing ON someone will know when to let the family known instead of letting her leave with no one holding her hand or something.

Anyway, a few posts ago I mentioned that my grandmother is dependent on oxygen supply. So now that they take it off I can’t help but get jumpy every time the phone rings because no one knows for sure how long she will survive without it.

Frankly speaking I have a lot of mixed feelings about all this.

Sometimes I don’t really like my life. It sucks. Period.

P/S I’m starting to agree with the Brits that James Blunt is annoying.

Been a while…

August 25, 2006

Sorry for the lack of updates in the last week. I needed some time to think through some personal issues which I shall not go into details here. It’s personal for a reason LAH! 😛

Anyway, nothing new to report other than I cleaned and tidy up my room last weekend. This will probably be more of a photo post than anything.

Remember all those books on the bed and floor? Well, they are now nicely organized on my shelves. (Thank God. I trip on a couple of books before.)

It’s still a little hazy out. I got some more pictures a few days ago while I was driving. A kind reminder to all you kids out there, don’t take pictures and drive. It’s highly NOT recommended. Believe me. I’m a pro at it and it ain’t easy. Heh Anyway, it rained really HARD earlier this morning (more like thunderstorms, we had power trips several times at 5am) and it cleared out a lot of the smog.


I don’t know if I mentioned before but I like photography of nature. I may not be THAT good at it but I do like the pictures I take (sometimes). I think I’ll create a photoblog sometime. Here are some nice pictures of my mom’s just-blossomed orchids and other knick knacks. Tell me what you think. If you’re interested in a larger file for your wallpaper and whatnot let me know. =D

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This is actually the color of the sky during sunset. Isn’t it pretty?

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This was Leo as a puppy. He’s a huge pain in the ass now. Not as innocent or awwwwwwwable anymore *sigh*

I know I didn’t say much but I promise to blog for real once there is something interesting to talk about! Besides, a picture says a thousand words.

Okay, time for me to watch TV. Later~~

Hazy day

August 16, 2006

I went out for a drive this morning. Without even realizing it, I was near the hospital where my grandmother is. So, I stopped by to see her. Last night, my mom told me that the doctor said there is no chance of her waking up and that she will be in a coma until she passes. She will continue to need oxygen supplied into her lungs and is likely to develop pneumonia because of this. No one knows how long she will be around. I told my mom about the dream and she said I think too much but I know deep down inside of her, she knows it will happen.

Seeing her today made me sadder than usual. My heart aches. She was more pale than usual. Her hands and up to the elbow are swollen even after being taken of the IV drip 2 weeks ago. I was told her
hands swell because of the IV. It was weird. I saw her and had this urge to take her picture, a picture of her laying there with tubes everywhere. So I did. I’m not gonna post it here obviously. Not going to freak you guys out. 😛

She’s old, even a car engine doesn’t last that long. Her engine’s probably really worn out by now. Hearing what the doctor said made me think. It’s a SURE thing now. She will pass some day. I know we all will but to have the doctor say that it’s like the ultimate ya know? All that I hope is for her not to suffer and for that she must pass. I don’t wish her dead. I just wish she wouldn’t suffer anymore. I think she would enjoy being with her husband and 3 daughters in heaven. One day we’ll all be there.

On to a not so somber post, the haze is here AGAIN! It gets worse and worse by the day. While out driving this morning visibility wasn’t as clear as usual. By 6pm when I left to go tutor it was so bad! I didn’t have a camera then so I couldn’t take the 6pm haze. :/

See how hazy it is down town? Can’t even see the tall buildings that clear
Doesn’t this look bad? You should see the actual sight. Camera picture doesn’t do much justice!
I finally emailed the proposal to my professor very early this morning. My room is such a mess after the proposal debacle. Ugh I must tidy up again. *growl* I hate cleaning! But first I need to get a good night’s sleep!!!

The pile on the floor

The pile on the bed

The pile of unsorted clean laundry and pillows thrown on the floor for more bed space.

Currently, I’m into the song by Corrine Bailey Rae, Put You Records On.

The tune is catchy and I like the upbeat-feel good lyrics:

Three little birds, sat on my window
And they told me I don’t need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong,but it’s alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same

Oh, don’t you hesitate.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down Sapphire and faded jeans,
I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You’re gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Blue as the sky, sombre and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the road side, (just relax, just relax)
Don’t you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that afro hairdo.
Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it’s alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don’t you think it’s strange?

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down Sapphire and faded jeans,
I hope you get your dreams, Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You’re gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Just more than I could take,
pity for pity’s sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise,
that you don’t even have to try any longer.
Do what you want to. Girl, put your records on,
tell me your favourite song You go ahead,
let your hair down Sapphire and faded jeans,
I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down Sapphire and faded jeans,
I hope you get your dreams, Just go ahead, let your hair down.
Oh, You’re gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Dreams or nightmares?

August 13, 2006

It’s 1 in the morning and I am taking a break from working on my proposal. I really do hope to have it done by Monday. Then I can emailed it to my supervisor and finally get some rest.

I know I said I probably won’t update until I am done but I have this feeling of uneasiness inside of me. Some thing is bothering me but I can’t exactly pinpoint what it is.

Perhaps it has to do with the dream I had 2 nights ago. I dreamt that my grandmother died. The dream was so detailed. I remembered getting the call one late night/early morning. I saw the body, kissed my grandmother goodbye. I saw the body in the coffin, I dreamt of the wake and the funeral. I dreamt that people came by to the wake and talking to the family while some just hung around. I woke up that morning really confused and had tears in my eyes. Tears I cried in the dream. It was just that real. I even remembered emailing my professor in that dream telling him I couldn’t submit my proposal in time because of the tragedy in the family. It’s no wonder I have been tense the rest of the week.

It’s not the first time I had a dream like this. A few days after an aunt died last year, I had a dream about her. She was hugging everyone in the family, saying goodbye. This year, before my aunt in Australia passed away, I had a dream about her. I dreamt she was talking to my mom. My mom asked how she was doing (she had cancer) and she told my mom she’s okay now. Two days later, she passed away.

It is scary to dream such things. I have no idea why I dream these things. I wish I didn’t though because it totally messes with my head.

I pray to God that whatever He has planned for my grandmother, just don’t let her suffer. She is old and everyone has to go sometime but it doesn’t make it easy seeing her on the bed, motionless with tubes everywhere.

Why do I dream the things I dream? Or are they nightmares?

I’m yawning but almost afraid to go to sleep, I’m scared to dream now…


August 10, 2006

I’m still sick, and not getting any better. I still can’t breathe through my nose. Heh But I am glad I haven’t gotten worse.

Frankly, I’ve been too busy to even realize I am sick most of the time. Time is on an importance now. Four more days til I have to submit the proposal and I am not even close to finishing. TENSION.

It’s looking like it will be a busy week for me. I have been running around the last 2 days or so. Yesterday I was running from the library to the photocopy center to getting lunch to going back to the photocopy place. I need books(!) but can only borrow 15. I reached my maximum. =(

And today, I went back to the library to return the books, drove Akiko around to get the things she needed for her guest house at Uni. She is thinking of moving out of there in a few months as Kota Samarahan isn’t exactly the best place to be when you have Kuching 20 minutes away. =P I brought her to a REAL supermarket because she couldn’t get any fresh vegetables from a supermarket within walking distance from Uni. She was quite happy to see the Everrise at BDC to say the least. Hehehe

As for now, I’m just waiting for Rob (HI HONEY =D) to come online so that we can discuss ideas for my proposal and as always he helps me do a bit of rewording. It’s like a boyfriend and proof reader at the same time! =D

I have been invited to a BBQ party this Saturday at a friend’s house. As for the rest of the week, I most probably and SHOULD spend it at home in front of this laptop perfecting my proposal as best as I can.

Til then I doubt I will update unless something very update-able happens. Au revoir~


August 7, 2006

So yeah, I’m sick.

I took two painkillers for the throbbing headache earlier. It’s gone for now…

I have two bright red cheeks. I think that’s a sign of a fever though I don’t know my exact temperature. Note to self: Go buy a thermometer tomorrow.

I have a sore scratchy throat. My voice is hoarse. I sound like a MAN. I was working on the proposal a few minutes ago and was reading something aloud. As I read, I was like “WHAT THE HELL??!?!” *CRIES*

Let’s just hope I don’t get worse. I would hate to get bronchitis again. *yuck* The last thing I need is to be so sick I can’t function and work on my proposal. I have no time to watch tv let alone get sick!


Kuching Food Festival 2006

August 5, 2006

I was at the Kuching Fest last night. It was all food, food, food AND food. Unfortunately I was too busy eating as I was SO hungry that I didn’t take pictures of the food. *oopsie*

Sad to say that the Kuching Fest is pretty much the same every year. To be honest, it’s getting a little too dull for me. The Garden Show was a let-down for me. It was the same as last year, and the year before that. =S

Basically, there isn’t much to talk about in my opinion. I’ve been to it every year since I was God knows how old.

So, here are some pictures for those who don’t have a chance to attend this annual fest.

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Fried and steamed sio-bee (dumplings)

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Fried chicken breast and Taiwanese sausage
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Picture of some stalls
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The crowd was crazy. They were either pushing and shoving you around OR they just walked like snails while you trail them from behind. Quite annoying to say the least!
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Garden #1

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Garden #2
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Garden #3
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Garden #4
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Garden #5
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Garden #6

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Garden #7

Some pictures came out blurry. For some reason, my camera doesn’t take too nice pictures in very dark places. =(

I want a better camera!

Anyhow it was good to go out last night as it has been a while since I hung out with my friends. =D

I may be going to the fest again on Monday with my parents. We shall see.


I feel a little sick at the moment. My throat is sore and scratchy and my body aches. STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS!

Nervous breakdown

August 3, 2006

So I had my first nervous breakdown today.

I was at the library this morning and suddenly heard this LOUD BOOM. It sounded so close, like it was just outside the library. Girls were like shrieking and stuff.

I was with a friend so he sarcastically said, “Oh no! Terrorists!”

Then I went “I hope so, then we’ll all get killed and we dont have to worry about anything.”

-The end of my nervous breakdown-

This is how nervous and stressed I am about the presentation to the whole faculty (amongst other things). I wake up almost every morning to stomach pains, as I feel my guts churn and I have to run to the bathroom. At first, I thought it was something bad I ate but there is NO way food poisoning lasts more than a week! By late afternoon, I feel so tired and drained. By nightfall, when I feel tired enough to sleep, I lay awake for AT LEAST an hour because I so much on my mind that I get this panicky feeling before I finally pass out until I wake up the next morning…repeat process! STRESS STRESS STRESS

I wonder if I’ll lose weight this way. lol I don’t have time for the gym. All I do is sit on my fat ass and work on my proposal. It’s not like I can burn calories sitting. *sigh*


It’s convocation week at Uni, so lots of activities and exhibitions and games etc. Time has flown so fast. It doesn’t feel like a year since I graduated. Today at Uni, I saw all those students walking around with their bags, robes and all. Brought back memories. No, I won’t go down memory lane…not in this post at least. 😛

FSGK held a fashion show this morning and I was lucky (unlucky) to witness it. The designs of the clothes were so not to my liking. I think many of you would have laughed at what I saw. One girl was wearing bright neon dungarees, you know like the ones you see garbage collector men wear, except that it’s BRIGHT NEON, like yellow highlighters! Her hair was in high pigtails, lots of hair spray to perk it up and THICK makeup. No pictures =( Didn’t bring my camera. *sigh* It seems I always don’t have my camera with me when something worth taking a picture of is around. Oh well…

Oh yeah, back to NERVOUS BREAKDOWN!!!!



Ermmm while I was taking a break earlier, I was doing some surfing and came across *points to the right* Meebo. It lets anyone IM me when I’m online. I think it’s very cool. So guys and gals, if you ever want to private chat with me, ask me questions, shower me with gifts or give me money, feel free to use Meebo in the side there alright? It’s named under “One on one”. I promise I won’t reveal your deep dark secret fetishes. 😉

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